moods

One of my friends had some excellent excellent news yesterday. I was excited and happy for him. As I went to congratulate him, I started to feel sadder and had to leave. It just highlighted ways in which I've failed my expectations. So when I came home I was pretty down. But then my fiance and I went to Bed Bath and Beyond to start registering for gifts. We spent 2 hours there and made it 1/3 of the way through the store. It's hard work! But afterwards I felt much better. We had accomplished something. We had worked. This emphasizes my belief that much of my unhappiness lately has been because I'm not working hard enough on my research, on my own projects that I care about. Today we're going to Pigeon Forge to look for corelle patterns. Then perhaps this weekend we can start registering at Target.