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Retreat Day 19 irl
Jan. 19th, 2016 11:27 pmI'm using my Mac's dictation feature for this journal because my wrists have started to hurt from all the typing. Today's topic is compassionate self-discipline, which sounds like an oxymoron. Discipline has such a negative connotation, after all. Who imposes self-discipline on me? What sub or structure is in charge? The manager, who I think of as Cruise Director Julie, assigns power to various subs and decides who has conscious power, but she can't control subterranean forces. True compassion includes doing what's most healthy for me. Not just what feels best at the moment. But this is hard to remember in the moment.
I made cookies tonight. This is not the best idea. To me, the idea of a good night is cookie dough and a book. And perhaps a cat. So when I wanted to take a night off, that was what I turn to. I suppose I need to develop new strategies for relaxation. I have a list of things on the refrigerator that I can do when I have free time, if I will just remember to look at it. The real failure of tonight is that I did not actually read a book. Instead, I watched a lot of shows on Netflix. I think if I had been reading, I would not have thought of making the cookies. Of course, the threat of snow also played a part.
This dictation thing is hard to do because I can only do a sentence at a time. This makes it hard to pick up the train of my thought. I will just go ahead and close by summing up today. I did record all of my food on my fitness pal, I sat for over five minutes, and now I have completed my journal. Now I will go take more advil for my wrist.
I made cookies tonight. This is not the best idea. To me, the idea of a good night is cookie dough and a book. And perhaps a cat. So when I wanted to take a night off, that was what I turn to. I suppose I need to develop new strategies for relaxation. I have a list of things on the refrigerator that I can do when I have free time, if I will just remember to look at it. The real failure of tonight is that I did not actually read a book. Instead, I watched a lot of shows on Netflix. I think if I had been reading, I would not have thought of making the cookies. Of course, the threat of snow also played a part.
This dictation thing is hard to do because I can only do a sentence at a time. This makes it hard to pick up the train of my thought. I will just go ahead and close by summing up today. I did record all of my food on my fitness pal, I sat for over five minutes, and now I have completed my journal. Now I will go take more advil for my wrist.