at Borders

Frustrated today. Probably because not working on my own stuff. The wedding stuff is fun and feels like I’m accomplishing things. But it isn’t one of my big 3-year goals. I’ve done nothing today toward losing weight or getting published. I had a large supper at the bird meeting. I went there to try to be social but there was a huge awkward period at the beginning where I was just sitting and waiting and getting depressed. So few people my age. Where are they all? Out having children. I guess I’ll catch up with them again when I’m 50 and their kids are gone. I did eventually end up talking to a nice vegan woman. She’s about 50, but very crunchy and smart. Now I’m at Borders and I’m going to at least read over my Austen essay so I can get to work on it again. Surely if my students can write a paper this semester, so can I!